I just need to vent for a minute. I really am frustrated w/ making calls. No matter what time of day I call, I get machines. Here I am at home ALL day long and whenever I try people no one answers. I have children climbing all over me and making noise most of the time during the day, so my opportunities are limited. I had a breakdown on my husband the other night about how it's crucial that I get some evening time to make calls. He doesn't get home till 8 most nights. Then it's chaos here w/ the kids excited to see daddy. They fight for his attention. He's trying to change out of his shirt and tie and eat dinner. We're trying to get the kids to bed, etc. It's just HARD! So I finally get him to let me have some time. Then after finally getting time, I had zero luck reaching people still! I just can't stand it! It really is the most frustrating thing about the biz. I love this job! I love doing shows! I love getting out of the house and meeting people and teaching them recipes and inspiring them to get cooking and try out our things. BUT I need bookings in order to do this! I've gotten leads while I'm out and about, but nothing ever comes of them. Oh people always ask and say they are interested..but then the phone thing comes into play. THey aren't reachable and they don't return calls. I try again, but still no luck. After having a terrible experience w/ a host, I'm super self-conscious of calling people. I'm scared of people thinking I'm harassing them and getting frustrated w/ me. I'm always happy and upbeat and positive (it's just on here that I let the negativity out) w/ my contacts and try to offer great customer service. But it isn't getting me anywhere. DH and I also had a big talk the other night about what my expectations are w/ the biz. What makes me happy? Am I content w/ just getting one show/order in to stay active? He thinks I spend so much time on this and that the point of having a home business is so that things can get done during the day. If a lot of the work is evening related, it's just not going to work. He doesn't get any time to do some of the things he needs to get done and he hates not getting to spend time w/ me as well. He doesn't care that he doesn't have time for a hobby, just as long as he has time w/ me and the kids. If I'm sad and depressed that my business isn't what I want it to be, he gets frustrated that this isn't what we intended the business to do for me. I need to just accept the fact that I'm a hobby consultant. Maybe as the kids get older it'll give me more time to work it. But right now w/ his work schedule and church responsibilities it's just impossible for me to expect to be able to do more than I am. I don't know, maybe I'm rambling and not making sense. But I'm very frustrated. I guess I see how great PC is, and love all these incentives and opportunities they offer and I get discouraged that I can't reach them. Like Disney....I want it so bad. But it's NEVER going to happen for us. I can't earn it w/ one or 2 shows a month! And not a single recruit. It's just sad. I feel like my head is so full of knowledge of how I could do it, but the time it takes to do those things is just not available to me. Sorry to vent...I just need to get it out. I guess it's also frustrating because here I am spending time and money to go to conference, and I'm not going to be able to really do anything w/ what I learn. Okay that sounded bad. I don't mean that conference isn't valuable to everyone...I'm still excited to go and learn and get pumped up w/ new ideas. And I hope it just helps so that I have great success w/ what I can do.