crystalscookingnow
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I think I'm typing this more for my own benefit than anything else. I know I don't post very often, but it feels right for me to send this. Sometimes, it just helps getting it out, you know?
My grandma passed away very unexpectedly last evening (Sunday). She was 69 & went to take her afternoon nap. My grandpa heard her take her last 3 breaths & called 911. They got there & rushed her to the hospital, but she was already gone. My cousin (her granddaughter) was one of the EMT's on the call & did everything she could to bring her back. She feels terrible, but there really wasn't anything that she could do. I went to the hospital & said goodbye to her after she was already gone. I really felt a peaceful & calm feeling come over me, like she was there putting her arms around me to comfort me.
My grandparents basically raised me from when I was a baby (about 6 weeks old) until my mom got back on her feet. There was even talk of them adopting me when I was 12, but it didn't happen. So, my grandma was more of a mom to me. I know that she's in a better place. She had diabetes & trouble with her heart, so I know that she's not suffering anymore. I'm just going to miss her so much.
Her arrangements aren't going to be until Thursday, I figure that's when it will really hit me that she's gone. We made all of the plans today.
She was my grandpa's best friend. He's so upset & so lost without her. Today (Monday) was their 52nd wedding anniversary. I don't know what he's going to do without her. I'm afraid that he's just going to give up on life so that he can be with her.
Please just keep our family in your thoughts & prayers as we go through a difficult time that's coming to us. I know most people in their lives have lost a loved one, but I haven't. This is so hard for me, I loved her so much.
I have a party tomorrow night that I'm going to do. I wasn't sure if I should or not, but I think it will help keep me occupied for a while. It's with my pastor's wife & church family, so I think it'll do me good to be with them. I know that grandma wouldn't have wanted me to sit at home. She loved PC stuff as much as I do! Her fav. thing is the exec. saute pan. She was my best supporter.
I'm sorry, I just needed to 'talk' if you will.
Thanks.
Crystal
My grandma passed away very unexpectedly last evening (Sunday). She was 69 & went to take her afternoon nap. My grandpa heard her take her last 3 breaths & called 911. They got there & rushed her to the hospital, but she was already gone. My cousin (her granddaughter) was one of the EMT's on the call & did everything she could to bring her back. She feels terrible, but there really wasn't anything that she could do. I went to the hospital & said goodbye to her after she was already gone. I really felt a peaceful & calm feeling come over me, like she was there putting her arms around me to comfort me.
My grandparents basically raised me from when I was a baby (about 6 weeks old) until my mom got back on her feet. There was even talk of them adopting me when I was 12, but it didn't happen. So, my grandma was more of a mom to me. I know that she's in a better place. She had diabetes & trouble with her heart, so I know that she's not suffering anymore. I'm just going to miss her so much.
Her arrangements aren't going to be until Thursday, I figure that's when it will really hit me that she's gone. We made all of the plans today.
She was my grandpa's best friend. He's so upset & so lost without her. Today (Monday) was their 52nd wedding anniversary. I don't know what he's going to do without her. I'm afraid that he's just going to give up on life so that he can be with her.
Please just keep our family in your thoughts & prayers as we go through a difficult time that's coming to us. I know most people in their lives have lost a loved one, but I haven't. This is so hard for me, I loved her so much.
I have a party tomorrow night that I'm going to do. I wasn't sure if I should or not, but I think it will help keep me occupied for a while. It's with my pastor's wife & church family, so I think it'll do me good to be with them. I know that grandma wouldn't have wanted me to sit at home. She loved PC stuff as much as I do! Her fav. thing is the exec. saute pan. She was my best supporter.
I'm sorry, I just needed to 'talk' if you will.
Thanks.
Crystal