KellyTheChef
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I am considering NOT attending NC. This is killing me.
As you all know, I am pregnant and due in November. I will be nursing excusively like I did with Evan...and with him, I could NOT leave and do shows for quite some time (he was probably 4 months old...) because I had so many struggles and there was just no way to skip a feeding till then. Plus, DH is VERY nervous with infants. When I finally had a few shows, Evan would pretty much scream his head off till I got home, which John enjoyed so much.... So...I don't even know how long I will need to be off. In a perfect world, I could pump and leave...do my show, and then pump in the car immediately after. But...if I have problems again, that just isn't feasable. If I can't do shows for quite some time, why should I invest in going to NC this year?
My long term goal to become a director has NOT changed. I know that I want something "for me" and I love working with PC. I WILL attend NC the very next time it's possible.
On top of this, I haven't seen my brother and SIL for almost two years (they live in SC, we are in OH). Soooooo....I am thinking that my $600 saved for conference (includes my registration and lots of spending $$ and $$ to blow at Merrill on clothes....) would pay for us to go visit them for a week this summer. My SIL's granny died at the end of the year, and she did NOT want me to come down then, since we really wouldn't be able to sit and chat and visit....so I PROMISED we would come this summer! Ugh. Financially, I think I need to take my PC $$ and go see them...and just resign myself to attending conference in 2010. I hate even seeing that date on this post. I know that next conference, I will not be up to leaving the new baby as long as I am nursing all the time still. Again...I don't think DH would "allow" me to leave him with such a young baby anyhow in 2009.
I guess I am just trying to think "out loud" here and see what I need to do. I think I may know the answer, but it is breaking my heart....:cry: :cry:
Comments, suggestions, ideas?
As you all know, I am pregnant and due in November. I will be nursing excusively like I did with Evan...and with him, I could NOT leave and do shows for quite some time (he was probably 4 months old...) because I had so many struggles and there was just no way to skip a feeding till then. Plus, DH is VERY nervous with infants. When I finally had a few shows, Evan would pretty much scream his head off till I got home, which John enjoyed so much.... So...I don't even know how long I will need to be off. In a perfect world, I could pump and leave...do my show, and then pump in the car immediately after. But...if I have problems again, that just isn't feasable. If I can't do shows for quite some time, why should I invest in going to NC this year?
My long term goal to become a director has NOT changed. I know that I want something "for me" and I love working with PC. I WILL attend NC the very next time it's possible.
On top of this, I haven't seen my brother and SIL for almost two years (they live in SC, we are in OH). Soooooo....I am thinking that my $600 saved for conference (includes my registration and lots of spending $$ and $$ to blow at Merrill on clothes....) would pay for us to go visit them for a week this summer. My SIL's granny died at the end of the year, and she did NOT want me to come down then, since we really wouldn't be able to sit and chat and visit....so I PROMISED we would come this summer! Ugh. Financially, I think I need to take my PC $$ and go see them...and just resign myself to attending conference in 2010. I hate even seeing that date on this post. I know that next conference, I will not be up to leaving the new baby as long as I am nursing all the time still. Again...I don't think DH would "allow" me to leave him with such a young baby anyhow in 2009.
I guess I am just trying to think "out loud" here and see what I need to do. I think I may know the answer, but it is breaking my heart....:cry: :cry:
Comments, suggestions, ideas?