wadesgirl
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I just don't know what to do any more with my husband! I normally don't share much personal stuff online but I have no where else to turn (my family probably all thinks I'm crazy by now!). A little back story, I almost left my husband last year. He started having panic attacks and the doctor put him on some medication that was an emergency only kind of med that he started taking mulitple times a day which turned him into a completely different person. He became angry and I got scared. I actually did leave him 2 days before Christmas but came back the next day.
So fast forward to this year... We started counseling earlier this year because it was one of the things I told him we needed to do in order for me to stay. Then the summer hit and we (mainly I) got busy and never went back. For the past month all he has done is accuse me of being up to no good, sneaking around, never being home, lying to him, hiding things from him, etc. He started snooping in my cell phone and has "confronted" me several times about apparently inappropriate messages that were actually nothing (one about how happy he was picking me up after I came back from a trip - duh, who else picked me up from the airport!). I'm trying to deal with this but I don't know what to do any more. Last night it all came about because I bought a halloween costume (first time in my adult life) for a few things I'm doing this year. One is with my sister, one is with my workout program and the other is possibly a party my aunt is throwing. I have told him all about it and he accused me last night of doing things without him and not inviting him! He said he's sick of being home alone (I've been home every night this week) and sick of me not telling him things. He thinks I have the same feelings about leaving like I did last year, which is not true but with my sister going through a divorce right now all he thinks I'm going to do is follow in her footsteps. This is eating me alive! I'm all about "for better or worse" but what about my own sanity? I asked him last night if he wanted to start going back to counseling and he said no. Today I'm going to see if he wants to talk to his doctor about possibly being depressed. That's the only thing I can think of. I cannot do this by myself yet all he is doing is pushing me away!
Just thought I would see if I could get some prayers sent our way! I'm sitting here at work and cannot function or do anything right now!
So fast forward to this year... We started counseling earlier this year because it was one of the things I told him we needed to do in order for me to stay. Then the summer hit and we (mainly I) got busy and never went back. For the past month all he has done is accuse me of being up to no good, sneaking around, never being home, lying to him, hiding things from him, etc. He started snooping in my cell phone and has "confronted" me several times about apparently inappropriate messages that were actually nothing (one about how happy he was picking me up after I came back from a trip - duh, who else picked me up from the airport!). I'm trying to deal with this but I don't know what to do any more. Last night it all came about because I bought a halloween costume (first time in my adult life) for a few things I'm doing this year. One is with my sister, one is with my workout program and the other is possibly a party my aunt is throwing. I have told him all about it and he accused me last night of doing things without him and not inviting him! He said he's sick of being home alone (I've been home every night this week) and sick of me not telling him things. He thinks I have the same feelings about leaving like I did last year, which is not true but with my sister going through a divorce right now all he thinks I'm going to do is follow in her footsteps. This is eating me alive! I'm all about "for better or worse" but what about my own sanity? I asked him last night if he wanted to start going back to counseling and he said no. Today I'm going to see if he wants to talk to his doctor about possibly being depressed. That's the only thing I can think of. I cannot do this by myself yet all he is doing is pushing me away!
Just thought I would see if I could get some prayers sent our way! I'm sitting here at work and cannot function or do anything right now!