janetupnorth
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As many of you know, I:
- work full time
- am a volunteer firefighter/EMT
- Red Cross instructor
- husband works about 65-70 hours per week at a Christian camp in the area where I also help on the weekends a bit
- have 2 kids (6 and 3 1/2) that I love and give all the attention to I can
...and...
- do PC.
Well, here is my struggle...I now have a goal of being a FD by Leadership and making it more as God leads...
We are supposed to get any mental roadblocks or doubts out of our way and just do it!
However, I KNOW God has me doing my FT and PC.
So, are there any of you FT that want to keep doing their FT job (not wanting to replace it) but still feel like you want to do PC more? How do you handle this?
Also, from the mental perspective, I understand the state of mind you need and pushing past all things to reach the goal, but also struggle with the fact that God needs to lead my life, not me. How do you guys balance that? ...the "let go and let God"...along with the "I need to do" Especially with the kids - they are my first priority and I have a hard time "driving full-force" and worrying that I'm doing too much ME and not THEM.
I have no doubt in my mind that God will do His will...but He doesn't always show us the clear path of what He has in mind...and I'm trying to determine what "level" He wants me at...He could have left me without a desire of Directorship which is where I was at a few months ago, but it is now there...
Ok, did I make any sense or start rambling. ...just so many thoughts in my head trying to balance my busy life when I like ALL (or most) of what I do!
- work full time
- am a volunteer firefighter/EMT
- Red Cross instructor
- husband works about 65-70 hours per week at a Christian camp in the area where I also help on the weekends a bit
- have 2 kids (6 and 3 1/2) that I love and give all the attention to I can
...and...
- do PC.
Well, here is my struggle...I now have a goal of being a FD by Leadership and making it more as God leads...
We are supposed to get any mental roadblocks or doubts out of our way and just do it!
However, I KNOW God has me doing my FT and PC.
So, are there any of you FT that want to keep doing their FT job (not wanting to replace it) but still feel like you want to do PC more? How do you handle this?
Also, from the mental perspective, I understand the state of mind you need and pushing past all things to reach the goal, but also struggle with the fact that God needs to lead my life, not me. How do you guys balance that? ...the "let go and let God"...along with the "I need to do" Especially with the kids - they are my first priority and I have a hard time "driving full-force" and worrying that I'm doing too much ME and not THEM.
I have no doubt in my mind that God will do His will...but He doesn't always show us the clear path of what He has in mind...and I'm trying to determine what "level" He wants me at...He could have left me without a desire of Directorship which is where I was at a few months ago, but it is now there...
Ok, did I make any sense or start rambling. ...just so many thoughts in my head trying to balance my busy life when I like ALL (or most) of what I do!