pamperedalf
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Some of you know that in mid March I took over a 3rd grade class to the end of the year and it has not been easy. I have 13 boys (a lot of emotions, quick to anger), and 5 girls. So the dynamics of this class is already hard.
Well w/ me being a young teacher (still green) I want to help everyone succeed in one way or another. Well I finally had to realize that I can't help everyone, and to bless and release. Personally still knowing I can't do anything I feel like I failed, but I know this parent does not want me to teach their son. They don't want their son punished because it's never his fault or it's petty. So I am pretty much a baby sitter and that's not what I went to school for.
Yesterday this student said he was sick (4th time in 3 weeks), and I don't usually let him go to the office because I know he's faking it. However yesterday I told him to go and take his stuff because I knew mommy would come and get him and I wanted to focus my time and energy on the students who wanted to do our project. I felt bad at first, then I thought why should I can't teach this student.
I don't know why it took me so long w/ fellow teacher friends saying just let him be don't pay attention to him, that's what he wants. I guess I am too stubborn, thinking I could have made a difference. According to his mom from what she is telling other teachers and parents is that this is the worst experience he has ever had. I wanted to yell her and say what do you think you have done to me?
Now if you have made it this far, thank you! Now my PC biz has taken a huge hit. I have been doing 1 show a month since April (thank God they were 1k+ each), but I have not been motivated to get on the phone consistently. I want to crash when I get home. I am so drained that I have been going to bed before 9PM (which is not like me, I am a night owl).
I have contemplated quiting, but it was not worth it to loose my customers for a year, So now I need to get off my duff and become director. I have been lucky enough to not go to my dir's meetings for the last 2 months (had other stuff scheduled at that time). I have also gone to Ida's meetings, she has been a huge help. Conference is going to be weird, but I know it will be the boost that I need.
Sorry it's so long I had to get it off my chest. I feel a little better. TIA if you made it this far.
Well w/ me being a young teacher (still green) I want to help everyone succeed in one way or another. Well I finally had to realize that I can't help everyone, and to bless and release. Personally still knowing I can't do anything I feel like I failed, but I know this parent does not want me to teach their son. They don't want their son punished because it's never his fault or it's petty. So I am pretty much a baby sitter and that's not what I went to school for.
Yesterday this student said he was sick (4th time in 3 weeks), and I don't usually let him go to the office because I know he's faking it. However yesterday I told him to go and take his stuff because I knew mommy would come and get him and I wanted to focus my time and energy on the students who wanted to do our project. I felt bad at first, then I thought why should I can't teach this student.
I don't know why it took me so long w/ fellow teacher friends saying just let him be don't pay attention to him, that's what he wants. I guess I am too stubborn, thinking I could have made a difference. According to his mom from what she is telling other teachers and parents is that this is the worst experience he has ever had. I wanted to yell her and say what do you think you have done to me?
Now if you have made it this far, thank you! Now my PC biz has taken a huge hit. I have been doing 1 show a month since April (thank God they were 1k+ each), but I have not been motivated to get on the phone consistently. I want to crash when I get home. I am so drained that I have been going to bed before 9PM (which is not like me, I am a night owl).
I have contemplated quiting, but it was not worth it to loose my customers for a year, So now I need to get off my duff and become director. I have been lucky enough to not go to my dir's meetings for the last 2 months (had other stuff scheduled at that time). I have also gone to Ida's meetings, she has been a huge help. Conference is going to be weird, but I know it will be the boost that I need.
Sorry it's so long I had to get it off my chest. I feel a little better. TIA if you made it this far.
