I know there have been several similar posts lately, but I'm at a loss for what to do. It helps just to write what I'm thinking down, so feel free to ignore my ramblings if you wish. :blushing: I'm floundering in my business and I don't know where to turn, or whether there is anything anyone can do to help anyway. I know what I need to do, I just can't motivate myself to do it. I've never felt like I've succeeded at anything, and I really wanted this to be the one thing I would excel at. I've felt like a failure at so many thing I've tried in the past, I think I've gotten to a point where I'm having trouble believing I'll ever succeed at anything. I've gotten stuck in a thought pattern of "if I don't call, I won't have to hear them say they don't want to have a party with me." I had three parties scheduled for the first two weeks of June plus one for May 29th. Now, I've got one left. I don't know where to turn to help get my internal dialogue changed around. My Director, although a wonderful person, is thousands of miles away, and even then I can't say that she's the best when it comes to supporting her consultants (she means well, but I don't think our styles mesh). I've never had luck connecting with her Director. I don't know if it's because I didn't try hard enough, or something else. My HD is a wonderful person, but I feel as tough she's so busy with her own team that I don't want to bother her with my minimal achievements. My husband is very frustrated at what he sees in my business. He sees the frustration I'm feeling, and doesn't think I should keep going. I don't want to voice my feelings to him, because it just adds fuel to the fire. It's hard because one day he'll be as supportive as can be, and then the next day he doesn't even want to hear PC mentioned. He actually said he thinks I should quit for six months and then re-sign under my HD. He says that then he thinks I would be able to get the support because I'll be in her personal cluster. As great as he thinks that idea is, I just don't think that would be fair to my current D. I just don't know where to start. I know I need to turn EVERYTHING around, I just don't know how. Rae had a great status on FB the other day: "your life is of infinite worth and impacts many others, regardless of your recognition of that fact." Maybe I should print that and post it around the house. Thanks for listening.