I had a show last night...its my 4th month...host was ready to cancel because she thought it wouldn't be worth my while...we're at $740 so far so its was great. HOWEVER, I get so upset with myself when I don't ask for bookings, forget parts of my spiel, etc. Why can't I be happy with this show and move on? Will I get better about this? It had been 3 weeks between Cooking Shows.